Finding peace...
Learning to find peace and rest in God....Even Peixian drops me a note from Cornell to remind me that I need to "REST" in God....In everything that I do....Amazing right? Talk about you talking about rest, Cecil sending me stuff on rest, and now even Peixian saying about rest....
I found a lot more peace about things, especially the exams, after studying for it...Less panicky, and able to trust in God for whatever grades that I get....Wanting As is still there, but I know that God will grant it if it is meant to be....
I prayed today again to find courage to tell people around me....Yesterday night, I sent two prayer requests to the Brooklyn Tabernacle church website.....And I said to pray for Kenneth's health...I really wished that he could be healed completely....The cool thing about this church is that they will pray for 30 days continuously for people....And the other person I said to pray for was Jo-Ann....That now she has moved to NYC....God will touch her and break her down somehow....And she will turn to Him....I don't know how...But I will trust God....
For myself, I must learn to open my mouth like you and share the gospel too!
Okay, going off to Macs soon to study....You take care, see you tonight! GAMBATTE!
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sigh..me too..i read it and i really prayed for courage about sharing the gospel to people..i mean everytime i look around me i feel so sad that almost everyone that i see around me are going to leave this world not knowing jesus and being able to go into heaven..sigh.
i had to facc e this courage thing before and it took me time to really learn how to just open my mouth..and the only person that ive managed to share the gospel with is just tommysan..and i dont know how he has taken that in...sigh.
im feeling so meaningless again.somehow this week i just feel so listless..i really want to be able to be more driven..im just getting more tired by the day..oh sigh.
anyways. i believe that we just have to trust God in all things..and that i have to learn how to gather up my courage to talk about God..infact sometimes when i speak to other chrisitians..i just cant stop talking about God...sigh.
oh wells..
anyways i hope you have studied well
take care
jiam
Way too selfish...
Read PDL Day 37 today...And you know...I think I'm way too selfish...I don't even have a real urge to want to share the gospel with the people around me...Like I feel worried about being rejected, and I don't know how the story would touch them and their lives, and I'm worried about so many things about myself that it ain't right anymore....I'm not trusting in God...And I'm not even thinking hard about sharing the gospel with them....Maybe I really don't have enough love for them....
Thus I prayed for Jo-Ann...I really love and care for her a lot...And yet I just don't know how to reach out to her....I prayed for Esther, another friend...Who attends church, but I don't know whether she is saved and she is marrying a Christian....
I still don't know how and who to share my testimony with...You know something, I really only like helping people who are Christians who have backslided in their faith....Sharing about God to non-believers is really something that I have never felt for before...And now I know that I'm being kicked into doing it....I have to do it and God is really causing me to realize that I need to grow in this area...To really love the people that I want to reach out to....
I really prayed that God will make me less selfish and have more love for others....
My Reply...
hello!
well i have been bad too with updating you about PDL....so no worries....
i really think that reading the SHAPE bit has helped me out quite a bit..i feel that i've been in my comfort zone...not really serving people for serving people but rather serve people with my own interests at heart...and that is not true service...so i really need to think about serving people with pure intentions....and NOT grumble about it....even though i want to help ken...yet i'm thinking about own time and how i need to study...hence i may not be so giving...a bit selfish...and i need to correct that...cos i may not be spending the time wisely anyway studying...cos i'm so distracted....so i really need to pray about it....
i need to pray about exams....and not worry...i'm becoming a worrywart like tiu...cos the more i feel that i need to study and get the As, the more i panic....so i really need to STOP worrying....and honestly...i don't want to worry...but i need to spend the next 5 days really just consolidating and being serious about studying....so will really need prayer about that....we are going to pray on sunday before church again? i'm excited to learn thai this week...though i haven't figured out who to practise my wordless book with...can i practise with you? =)
i'm really glad that you worked things out about our church for now...that you will stay....and help to build up another CG....i know that our church doesn't meet a lot of people's needs....we really need to pray about it....i don't know how we can survive much longer like this....not very good.....so let's put that down as one of the things that we have to pray for?
here i am again
hey ade ade ade..haha
im in school now and been replying all blogs and stuff like that and i decided its time to reactivate this once more..haha..pardon me for not visiting this place as often as i wish i could but then again i see you more often than i come here so its cool!hhah..i foresee us using this more when i leave for aussie again..hah.
anyways im reaadin my PDL more dilligently now.hah..and im at chapter 35...that correct?haah..
but its been a really excellent journey doing this book and im sure it was for you too..
i dont recall whether ive shared with you someof the chapters that really spoke to me..i think i did mention to you the chapter on shape and stuff like that..but seriously..chapters 30 to 35 has been so beneficial to me..in all instances..im in the processs of really discovereing my shape and everything...and its so exicting when i read about how Gods handicraft in each of our lives is so extraordinary...beginning to realise more and more about why stuff happens and just embracing them as part of the big plan that i cannot see...its so exicitng!!hahh
ok like the biggest most recent thing that ive learnt is that God has placed me in CEE with the knowledge that i can do it which is why im there...He knows that he has given me the gifts to handle it..i just need to dig them up and develop it and put in the needed work to perfect it and groom it...and in terms of my confidence..God has really made me realise that its not that im misplaced in engin, its that i have that gift and i just never knew it!!haah...cool right??!!!
and the latest thing ..is the role of being a servant...been reading eccl after sunday ..and i learn so much about it...like the time for everything..that day i tookhome that..and it was so beneficial to me..vicky confirmed it more when she told me to take one thing at a time...because in all things i try to rush through and just wished and wished that i could have them now...one area of patience that i had to learn..yeah..it was neat..then also feeling that everything is meaningless..like how i kinda feel that shopping is meaningless..i mean i dont think i will never ever shop again but as in...it doesnt have to be done all the time...and im not ruled by it anymore...but now i was asked by someone in the week what i find meaningfull.and i realise that its the act of serving...the very act of givin others more thought and helping people and just lvoing them its so meaningful!! and one eg of the week is ken!! i know that he probably needed so much help just having to mark all those scripts and stuff like that!!haha...anyways yeah its been really exciting learning about these kinda stuff...
okok i have class now..gtg...
ill speak with you soon!
