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hey hey...so i blogged..sorry its not the longest thing but that is what i got out of it ...
Anyways. today i spent time doing work and sleeping and chatting with shaun on sms...well its him finally telling me why he is shutting me off and how he cant do that at the same time...i think we are talkin on better terms now but he wonders if he ever has a chance..
you know what i feel? sometimes i feel that he may jsut be the one for me but so many times i just cant fee that way as well..cause i want so much more now...because i am figuring myself out now...i can just feel that i want more...sigh.can you actually want more? i dont know man...yet he is a really great guy...seriously...my brother and i think my mom wants me to try things out..but i just simply cant afford to that man..cause i just cant feel that way somewat...
i dont know man..so confusing lah..sigh.i picked up several thoughts at reubens wedding..sharing it with you now...when i heard what uncle tom said to esther about how her unique experiences were meant just for her to be able to grow n develop to a woman suitable for reuben..i really felt at that moment that i really wanted to be ready for my guy next time n to just groom myself..when i look at andy i really respect him cause he is only 24 and he seems to have done so much already..things that i myself would really like to achieve..the travelling and the job and everything ah...then i realised maybe cause he has no gf?? hahah...damn random but i think this way becasue i think sometimes i get so involved in all these relationship stff that i dont do what im sppose to be doing and get all messy instead? you know what i mean?yarh cause im such a unfocused person..sigh..theres so much that i wished i could have achieved and things like that...so much going on in my head man...after that night..thats probably why i couldnt go to sleep..hahaha..and people like ANdy seems to have it all for him...and he has the power to choose now...as in like reuben right..they are all in the stage where they are stable and can handle stuff already...i haven been at all..that kinda thing lah...hahahha
yeah well..just a mere section of my head...haahah...gtg eat dinner now..ciao
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